Responsibility Weighing On My Mind

Don't you just hate it when you know you have to be responsible for something. It's this dark cloud that weighs on your mind and refuses to go away. Take now for instance. It's the most beautiful day outside. I want to go outside and do something, even ride my bike, which I haven't done in ages. However, since I know that I have to do some official business work first, I just can't relax. The person I'm suppose to meet is currently not contactable, and I don't know when they will be available. So I'm unsure as to just go out and have fun or sit here and wait for a call.

Responsiblity is such an evil monster that can weigh down my mind. I wish I could be totally irresponsible but that's just not me. I hate that I feel I have to be responsible and do the right thing. It's just the way my parents have brought me up. It is probably also part of my genetic make up too I guess. Whatever the reason, I know that when I have to do something responsible, I usually can't forget about it until I complete that task.

For now, I will wait 30 more minutes, and if the person doesn't call back, well thats too bad. I will just have to reorganise another meeting time and try and push it out of my mind today and enjoy myself. I'm sure once I go out and start having fun, I will forget about it, until when I come home again.